Camouflage of life

Author: Stuti Sharma

We all live in this world like we have all the time we need. Never realising that time is just a memory. It’s a moment of joy and a lifetime of grief. The hopes and dreams,the resentments and complaints are only a fraction of the emotions felt. True joy is to know that we felt them. Forgiving and forgetting, when heart only wants to relive the past differently this time, know that time is always scarce. Engulfed in loss, which sometimes is not truly even yours, you owe it to yourself to choose to make memories instead. Live your time.

We have all got problems. We hear people say that childhood decides the future. If that was the case then we would never have Tom Cruise and Eminem. They would have victimized themselves and kept themselves to a corner fading into a shadow. Sometimes, you wish you had faded. The very people who you meant to see you are appalled at the very sight of you. You may think there is a problem with you, but you need to understand that there could be a problem with them too. Maybe, your haunted childhood affected you very little because inside you are a Tom Cruise and outside you are Eminem shouting out loud about the hurt you have felt till now. Maybe you are affected by childhood of those who themselves are still haunted by their childhood and refuse to let go. Your presence, your idea of coming out of that trauma is revolting to them. You see, they want to be victims, and you, you want to be a protector. A protector who saves himself from drowning and the others don't want that. Y...

Sometimes the hardest thing to do is to believe yourself. Even harder is make somebody else believe you. We try very hard to tell our true story in it's purest form. What we don't understand is... that it's never important if anyone believed us or not. What you go through in your loneliest times was never meant for anyone to know. When the time is running slow, it's making a decision to go a certain direction. Your story was written in a time when even destiny did not know which way to go. It is important to understand that we truly create our own destiny. The stumbles in our way is just a reminder of our human nature. For if we do not fall, how do we rise? If we do not aspire to rise, how do we know the journey? And if there was no journey? How will you ever write your story? You see, the beauty of the destination has always been it's journey. The people that accompany you along it are different shades of experiences coming to you in an endless journ...

The struggle is real. It's real and it hurts. Every single bone in your body screams. The echo only heard by yourself. Makes you want to quit sometimes. The sad reality of enduring it alone. Alone as nobody else can feel what you feel. The comforting words of loved ones are not enough. The embarrassment after asking for help is scorching. The mind and body are at war. Still the heart dares to dream. There is courage in your heart and you know it, but it's the motivation that has left you. I hope for your heart to never fail you. If not for her you would cease to feel the tiniest joys that you feel now. The ache will one day go and the hour to sprint to the horizon will be upon you. So for that day, endure your pain today. For its not only your body that hurts. And you know that.

To  those who know love and feel it everyday... Congratulations! You have found the one thing that many around you are failing to know. To those who are not feeling it... Well, its not really your fault. You see, love is the purest energy that you can ever feel in your life. And, it's frequency is different for everyone. That's why you love someone more than anyone else in your life. More often than not, we are the "anyone else". And there is nothing wrong with that. You see, love is like the freedom you have never tasted. Once you know it, nothing will ever be enough. So keep looking for it. Maybe, its right at the corner... or may be it's never meant for you. But if today you find yourself surrounded by only yourself, and you are not okay with it... I insist that you start your journey. Go far and wide... Leave everything behind. Nobody is chasing you anyway. But remember, if you are alone and you don't like it... you need t...

At the end, those who choose the shadows, do it so that their people can live normal lives. It is injustice that someone should sacrifice for others to have a happy life but just think for one moment, if you had to give up all so that those you love will smile, what will you do? The pain will remind you that you prevented the one you love from it. Now isn't that worth all of it. If you had to do it for a lifetime and over and over again, you would.